27 Quotes/Phrases/Thoughts/Lyrics to live by: #2

This has been the theme of my last - oh, I'd say - 5 years.. 

because, in my "what do you want to be when you grow up" world, I was going to be married at 21/22-ish, and by 28 have 3 or so kids (depending on single birth or twins), spending my days as a stay at home mom.. However, God's plan seems to be different than my childhood dream..

When I was first "licensed to drive", my parents would send me to get milk at the store, or have me drive the kids to school, ect.. When I  would come home well after the estimated allotted time it should have taken, they'd ask where I'd been. You see, I like to drive in a circle.. If I take one route to get to my destination, I can't take the same way back. If there's a road in between there and here that I've not traveled before - if it's "on the way" - then why not check it out? These slight detours became known as "Billy trails".. named after the Family Circus character Billy, and his travels..

.. at times I feel like I'm on a never ending "Billy trail" to that husband and kids and stay-at-home-mom-ness.. that I'm just wandering through these 20-something years, trying to find where I fit..

And yet, J.R.R's quote reminds me that wandering is really not so bad.. In fact, it's not even necessarily an indicator of "lost-ness"..  and while I will admit to wondering sometimes if God's forgotten the desires of my heart, and to crying out, "what abt me, God?.." I am mostly grateful for where I am currently..

When I look around at my life right now, I see many things I didn't have the capacity to "dream" into my future, but that God has graciously allowed me to "taste and see" that I enjoy! Never in a million years did I think I'd be an interpreter, working with Cru and college students on Summer Projects. Nor did I foresee mentoring a young Deaf girl and her family.. or high school kids at a youth group.  I didn't think about all the volunteer opportunities with Compassion that I'd have time for if I didn't get my dream.. Or the shift in perspective of my world and of living singularly while in community.


So, while I still hope to be that stay at home mom, with 20-some-odd kids running around in a controlled chaos called "home school", this billy trail to that destination obviously has merit in God's path for my life. So I'll continue to wander it, taking in my surroundings, and knowing that while "the shortest distance between point A and point B is a straight line" - there's also a beauty in the wandering one.. 


Soli Deo Gloria
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